Lyrics

(hook)
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

(verse 1)
Lately, I really feel like I'm rolling for delph like philly
Feel like I'm losing control of myself
I sincerely Apologize if all that I sound like
Is I am complaining
But life keeps on complicating
And I'm debating on leaving this world this evening
Even my girls can see I'm grieving
I try and hide it, but I can't
Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
When inside I'm dying
I am finally realizing, I need help
Can't do it myself, too weak
Two weeks I've been having ups and downs, going
Through peaks and valleys
Dilly-dallying 'round with the idea of ending this Shit right here
I'm hating my reflection, I walk around the house
Tryin' to fight mirrors
I can? t stand what I look like, here, I look fat
But what do I care? I could give a fuck
Only thing I fear is hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes then I might see her, shit

(hook)
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

(verse 2)
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, napping at noon
Yeah, dad's in a bad mood
he's always snapping at you

Marshall what happened that you
can't stop with these pills
And you've fallen off with your skills
And your own fans are laughing at you
You've become a problem you're too pussy to tackle
Get up, be a man, stand
A real man would of had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say proof just flipped out
Homie just whipped out and bust, nah
It isn't like dudey to do that, he wouldn't fuckin
Shoot at nobody, he'd fight first
But dwelling on it only makes the night worse
Now I'm popping vics, percs and methadone pills
"yeah em, tight verse, you killed it"
Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes-men
And they gonna do whatever I says when, I says it
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my fucking best friend, so fuck it I guess then

(hook)
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

Don't know what I'm gonna do
But I just keep on going through changes

(verse 3)
My friends can't understand this new me, that's
Understandable, man
But think how bananas
you'd be, you'd be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's lookin? at you
what you want me to do?
I'm starting to live like a recluse and the truth is
Fame is starting to give me an excuse
to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theater
Watching the same damn dvd of the first tour
The last tour, he was still alive and it hurts
So I fast forward
sleeping pills will make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
I just take a couple more, yeah
you're motherfucking right
I ain't slowing down for no one
I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah homie
come on dole 'em out
"daddy don't you die on me
Daddy better hold your ground! "
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice
Yeah baby, hold me down

(hook)
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm gonna do
But I just keep on going through changes

(verse 4)
Wake up in the hospital full of tubes
Plus somehow I'm pulling through
Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
I'mma do it just for proof
I think I should state a few facts
'cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit it just hit me that what if
I would not have made it through
I think about the things
I would have never got to say to you
I'd never get to make it right
so here's what I came to do
Hailie this one is just for you, whitney and elaina too
I still love your mother, that will never change
Think about her every day
We just could never get it together
Hey, wish there was a better way for me to say it
But I swear on everything
I'll do anything for her on any day
There are just too many things to explain
When it rains, guess it pours
Yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain
But I can't pretend there ain't
I ain't placing any blame, I ain't pointing fingers
Heaven knows I never been a saint
I know that it feels like we just pissed away our History
and just today I looked at your picture, almost hate to say
I miss you, sub-consciously
Wish it didn't end this way, but I just had to get Away
Don't know why, I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm

(hook)
I'm going through changes
Don't know what I'm gonna do
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes